30 Days Of Jaye: Resist

I have a history of depression. Writing at this time of my life was cheap therapy, and still is. -JBHarris

why do I keep the understated?

I keep these things

to maintain a small measure

of peace…elusive peace,

something that I have tried

to keep at all costs

I can be forgiven for that…

I cannot forgive myself

for what has transpired just

when it seemed when I have

allowed myself to move

away from what I treasured,

to something that is readily available

it is ripe for my taking my enjoyment

to know this is torture

that should not be wished on,

even on an enemy

-Jennifer Bush (now Harris), 2004